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Learning and Healing from Loss

As I sat on Bell Rock for sunrise my first morning in Sedona, I was processing the loss of the class I had been working towards for over 5 years.  It was the very reason I was in Sedona in the first place.  Yes, it was just postponed - but the loss was very real to me.  I had received the email informing me of the postponement as I crawled into bed my first night in Sedona.  After preparing for years, traveling all day to get there - talk about a gut punch...  Do I stay for the retreat they are offering to us, do I go home, how much of my trip can be refunded?  All of these questions flooded my tired mind.

After a restless night of semi-sleep, I allowed myself to feel all of the emotions sitting on my perch on Bell Rock:

  • shock over the loss, MFR 3 just doesn't get postponed at the last minute!

  • sadness and worry about my mentor's injury

  • sadness over the loss of his physical presence this trip

  • anger that things changed, that my vision for my trip needed to change

  • anger over having to experience this loss in the first place

  • fear over wasting time and valuable resources to be in Sedona

  • and ego entered in, the part of me that wanted to leave Sedona with that Expert status this class affords you.

As I felt all of these emotions, I eventually found myself able to open my mind to the lessons, opportunities and possibility of deeper healing that this experience could bring.  I eventually found myself opening up to these opportunities.  I even looked back at the goals and intentions that I had set for this trip just the day before.  As I read through them, I realized that there was no reason I couldn't still reach them.  And do you know what I did not find on that list I had carefully written?  I found no mention of the Expert status my ego had wanted to hold on to.

My message was clear.  I was to let go of control and fear.  I was to trust the process.  Oh boy, are these lessons that are familiar!  I realized how far I had come over the past few years with letting go and trusting, but that there was work still to be done.  What I began to picture was a fluid mind, body and spirit.  One with a strong body, mind and soul - and an unlimited heart.

I have so many more things to share from my trip - but for now, I want to hear about a loss you have handled - or maybe not handled.  Please reach out if this resonates with you...